Yesterday, on Facebook, i asked what direction you wished that Page to take. I did so after some had being very vocal regarding what should be excluded and debated what the definition of “loving Knysna” entailed. As all my websites feed through there, you would’ve determined their future too. And mine.
Although the majority are often silent when it comes to contentious issues, it doesn’t mean that they don’t care. After all, subscribers continue to grow (now at 1080 which is fab in a little over a year), a sign that it’s what people want. But i was prepared to close it and most of my websites down if few responded because interaction is incredibly important as these information portals are for Knysna (and of no value if only a stress for me and entertainment to others). A service has to have people to serve.
People tend to forget that there’s a human on the other side of this screen. Doing what i do may be interesting but it’s also very challenging. It’s not only that the cupboard runs empty almost monthly but because of the debate i have within myself e.g. “Why the hell am i still doing this?” I’m suppose to live by my creed which includes only helping people who help themselves yet the majority are silent publicly, preferring to hide from the problems that face us so that the problems are likely to defeat us.
But it’s obvious that with 2000 views of that FB page yesterday and, most importantly, almost 1000 views (almost all of you) of the question i asked you (with many giving feedback), you consider my websites to still have a purpose. Hopefully more of you will answer today, a back to work Monday, once you’ve got your bosses internet connection to abuse:)
Furthermore, net traffic traditionally dies during the holidays, with Knysna Keep only gaining a 1000 views in Dec 2012. Yet Dec 2013 garnered 11924 views and the average in the first week of this year was even higher. This is not a fun blog. This is serious reading on a niche topic. The people who land here are likely more intelligent, have an interest in Knysna and share their views (and, consequently, some of mine) with others – when i publish, the topic reaches a far wider audience than those who read it. Ironically, sometimes people from other towns phone people in Knysna to ask them if they’ve read the latest.
This means that i have a responsibility. I want you to assure you that i’m very aware of that and sometimes have to make tough decisions on how best to get a topic known. Breaking through Knysna’s fear and apathy was a daunting task. I used controversy but always based on facts as best i knew them. I won’t always make the perfect decision, and fulfill a desire for issues to be defined by black and white, good and bad, because there’s so much gray in Knysna so as to sometimes be a soup i’m wading through. Hell, i hope that you all realise that we’re in this soup bowl together and share the desire to be more than a noodle.
From your Facebook answers, it’s obvious that the majority want all news, good and bad, and must therefore share my view that Loving Knysna is not all cakes and sweets but requires overturning stones and getting pricked by thorns. My metaphor for that was to put a beautiful jellyfish in the header. No matter how much i love this town, i get stung a lot because controversial issues attract disagreements (good and bad) and baddies.
And since someone committing wrong is always somebody’s husband, wife, friend, sponsor, smoking buddy, golf buddy, boss, colleague or neighbour, there’s inevitable backlash.
There are deliberate disinformation stories about me. They were expected but it doesn’t mean that they don’t offend me, sometimes even hurt. I deal with these hurdles far better than i used to. Knysna has made me mentally tougher than at any time in my life. But i’m still human and sometimes i hit a wobble and wonder why the hell i’m battling to break this wall of corruption and lies when it would tumble in a day if we all worked together??? And, on a day like today, it helped that a mate took me for a midday, double brandy and coke so that we could vent the frustrations of our past week before returning to the new one.
Regards Mark Allan, i’m disappointed in you. That’s not the right thing to say to keep some of you on my side but, as said, i want you to see me for who i am. I’m not going to pretend to be anything but me. And i’m only going to keep doing this if we work together. One thing i can guarantee is that i will always explain myself…and i will do so tomorrow, hoping that you give it a fair read and either correct me or give me your support. There’s a bigger picture here and some have mistakenly (some deliberately) skipped it.
This is personal. It should be for you too. That’s what life is. That makes it worth living.
I said that getting direction from you was a first step. Thank you for your input. It was much appreciated! We’ll hopefully take step #2 together in the coming week.